By Mrs. Superdad
I have not really loved home schooling for the past few years, if I’m honest. In fact, neither have the kids. So instead of holding myself to having an official start date with my stack of materials and curricula ready to go this year, I decided to totally chuck it all and re-imagine the entire concept of school. When we began with Matt, now almost 19 yrs old, we spent our time going places, doing things, and reading. We all learned a lot and had a great time. I have missed those days for so many years. I took the whole summer off, traveled, and focused my attention on a non-profit instead…all the while with thoughts of school stress intruding my mind.
It’s odd the battles we have with ourselves sometimes, isn’t it? I have so many with myself on the topic of home schooling. What should it look like? What should my kids be learning? What if they don’t learn everything they need to know? Why can’t they learn what I’m trying to teach them? Do we use textbooks? Enrichment classes? Tutors? Lessons? AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!! I freak out, shut down convinced that I can’t do it, then go to sleep. Then, after I am rested, I tackle things and come up with a plan of action. But, my goodness, it is EXHAUSTING!
I’m tired, bored, stressed, bored, overwhelmed, bored, unhappy, bored, and borED, boRED, bORED, BORED! That’s really the thing. I’m bored. I have no enthusiasm and just go thru the motions hoping the kids learn something. I have systematically talked myself into a corner over the years and this girl is done being in the corner.
(My youngest, who is 10, just asked me to help him with something and I told him I would as soon as I am done writing this. He said, “I like to write too.” Good, because I actually did not know that about him. We had a short discussion about what he likes to write, which evidently is everything.)
Back to my corner. Where I am standing, stressing, and being BORED. I’m done. With what? My whole ‘school-y’ thought process and all the unpleasantness it has caused. So, we’re bustin’ out of this joint. Textbooks will become reference books for the real life we are going to run out and grab. I don’t want my kids to be like everyone else, to think like everyone else, and do what everyone else does just because everyone else thinks, says, or does it. I want them to be true individuals.
Here’s my thought for the day: We home school for a reason. We want something different for our kids, our families, and our futures. How can it be different if all we do is re-create a traditional school in our homes? Remember, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over again expecting different results. I have been living in my corner of insanity for far too long now. How about you?